May 28: Just finished uni. Just handed in the very last essay for my degree :) :) FInally free? Evening was spent having lots of fun and drinking lots and going to the Black Eyed Peas after party as a joint bday party from a few people at work, I love working at the o2, so many perks!
May 29: Today's Lorrie and danny's leaving party at the Salysbury, just down the road from me. Even though I think she's a proper bitch and we haven't talked in like a year, I think I'll go anyway, I have the right to celebrate the end of my degree, don't I? Plus it might be a good idea to reconnect before she fucks off to New Zealand for a year or two. The evening is good and she even apologises! I spend a lot of time getting drunk with Maria and feeling very happy to finally be able to let my hair down!! It all ends in tears anyway, after a big mission in the bus all the way to cockfosters, where L&D live. Danny disappeared, of course he's shit scared to leave so far and for so long, and he's been cheating quite a bit on Lorrie for their whole relationship (so has she, they ain't better than one another!) and we get kicked out. I'm pissed that I can't get Maria to leave, Lorrie and Tally just suck the attention of too nice people. Tally also apologised to me tonight, she was being a proper bitch when Lorrie was upset and I put her in her place. I guess I did quite a few things right tonight. Except I got into a big argument with Lew over the phone. I won't be seeing him for another couple of weeks and he's annoyed that i got drunk and flirty and stupid and he wasn't there, and i'm annoyed that he wasn't there too. (edit June 3: I actually spent a whole day crying because i thought he was going to leave me, but we had a quasi rational phone conversation, and i can't wait to see him again, he loves me :)
June 13: The news are that I’m helping my boyfriend with the organisation of his festival, it happens next weekend so we’re in big stress mode right now cos there’s still so much to do! but i guess we’ll get it done. I’m going to where he lives on tuesday! I’m looking forward to it and not at the same time. I’m excited to see where he lives and stuff, cos i’ve never been there, i was too busy with my final year at uni so he was the one coming to see me most of the time. My excuse is that he’s not lived there long. But it’s a caravan in the garden of his flat/caravanmate’s parents… so i’m not looking forward to spending a week in a caravan!!
We started Green Tea. A business, it's tiring and scary, but the event at Leamington Peace Festival was extremely successful!
June 24: We went for a walk on the hill. Just Lewis and me. Proper quality time. In between green tea and all these assignments to help lewis finish for uni and Open Avenue that still goes on, we haven't really had any time to spend just us and that was really good. I am loving every quality moment we spend together and cannot believe that I love him more everyday.
June 27: it is the hottest day of the year … And I spent it in an air conditioned office all day! Yes I worked all weekend, and I am knackered… Since I was at Lewis’s house/caravan, I have come back to london, because of this weekend’s shifts at work, and have not had any time; not even to empty my suitcase! On wednesday we had to drive to Birmingham because he and his flatmate had to go in for an exam, so Gina (the flatmate’s 16 year old girlfriend) and i went shopping in the city… although i had to be careful what i looked at and what i thought of buying because she only had £3 to her name and I did not want to seem too rich next to her (cos I’m not)! I ended up buying a skirt from the sales in that amazing vintage shop right by the college for £3 and an H&M polka dotted skirt!
June 28: I can’t wait to get my new tattoo! I’m pretty sure I’ve got near to the final design!!
July 1: I went to the hairdresser's today for a much needed trim. Finally my hair will look healthy again! I will be dying my hair this weekend after buying the dye from Morrisons with Lewis. It's a marvellous reddish brown (Edit 5th July: the colour indeed suits me marvellously, I am in love). I’m getting my degree mark tomorrow, and I think I’ll go return a lace top from UO sales that I won’t be wearing and get a few sale items from H&M like some high waisted shorts in oxford circus, because the store is so much bigger than the one closest to me (I actually didn't have time to buy anything, but I did some more internet sale shopping at UO on July 14, and on the weekend of the 5th I got a few cheap items from H&M and some high waisted shorts in the miss selfridge sales). Since I’m making the trip to uni to see my grade, I just need to stop off on the way back! I’ll either congratulate myself or console myself, depending on the outcome of my degree!! My biggest gift for finishing my degree though is my next tattoo, I seriously need to take an appointment now!
July 2: I got my degree mark: 72% and I am thrilled!!! Yes I actually got a FIRST :) :) :) :)
July 14: My stupid cats, well they’re not mine really, but Lewis's parents, have brought loads of fleas in the house and my room hasn’t been spared… I haven’t had any clothes or any time to do anything but clean. I was in my old sweaters everyday while de-fleaing the room, tidying everything and spraying the whole floor and wardrobe with flea-killing chemicals. I have washed about half of my entire closet, and it’s already taken 5 days!! My washing machine is so slow though, and since it has been crappy weather in the past two to three days, I can’t let my clothes dry outside and it takes around 15 hours for them to be completely dry when inside! Grrrr so annoyed at my boyfriend’s parents (who I live with) for not having done the cats flea treatment on time!!!
July 15: I have been kind of down these past few days… Lewis has been away, running a big project in the west midlands and having an equally hard and exciting time, and I still don’t have a job. The other day I sent my application letter to my university tutor for some feedback before sending it for the temporary job that will be the key to my dream job if I get it, and she answered back that the way it was written was certainly not going to cut it and get me an interview. Here lays the reason to my joblessness so I am quite demoralised! + I haven’t had any shifts this week, so not earning any money, my saturday shift got cancelled when the event I was working for got cancelled and I spent the whole week doing laundry to make sure I’m getting rid of all those stupid fleas! I was really excited about Re-evaluation counselling tonight though, the previous plan for this week was going to prevent me from going, but since it changed I was able to go to the monthly on-going class (albeit about one hour late cos I ended up completely forgetting about it!!), and when I arrived I was told the subject for discharge today was ‘closeness and sex, anything around sex’… So imagine my disbelief when I realised that this was the subject at the root of all my trust and safety issues and that I really need to make an extraordinary effort to work on that in all my sessions from now on… it would DEFINITELY make my day-to-day life a lot easier.
Some more outfit shots and more from the past few months:
I know it's a lot of pictures at once but I only just found how to export my photos from iphoto in smaller sizes, and before i simply could not upload them on this site as they were too heavy! :)
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